To the boy that sexually assaulted me…

To the boy who sexually assaulted me,

I don’t know if you remember me, since you were very drunk when we met. It was my first time ever meeting you; I still don’t know your name. You were waiting for me at the door of the party, as if you were an animal stalking its prey. As I stepped in the room, you pounced.

I don’t know if you remember pulling me away from my friends, but you isolated me. It was a very crowded room, I couldn’t see them anymore. You were a lot bigger than me, it was almost impossible to get away. I screamed for you to let me go.

I don’t know if you remember putting your hand up my shirt, but you brought tears to my eyes. You had your lips by my ear, drunkenly whispering sexual comments to me. You said you wanted to take me away, you said that I was perfect, you said that you needed my clothes to be off. I was so scared, but I don’t think you cared.

I don’t know if you remember me hitting you, but I was desperately trying to get away. The room we were in was filled with people, but no one seemed to notice what was happening to me. As you forced your mouth to mine, I wanted to kill you.

I don’t know if you remember my rage, but you laughed at it and pushed me away. You said that I’d be back, you said that I can’t resist you. You watched me search for my friends and enjoyed my fear-stricken struggle. You made me terrified of every boy around me.

I don’t know who you are, but if you read this I want you to know that I think you are pathetic. I want you to know that I am stronger than you. I want you to know that if I ever see you again, I will make sure you remember what you did to me.

Sexual assault is too common, and more people need to learn to stand up to it. If someone was to step in, I wouldn’t have had to go through that alone. So if anyone does relate to my story, know that I am here for you and willing to give you support. Survivors need to band together to show the world that we are here to fight.

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3 thoughts on “To the boy that sexually assaulted me…

  1. Wow. The fact that this kinda stuff has to be said makes me really angry! Sexual assault is so not okay!!!!!!!!!!! I am so sorry for everyone who has ever had to go through something like this. Not cool.

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  2. Hey I came over your blog randomly and when I saw this post it really felt like you were still hurt. Sorry if i’m mistaken.
    Nonetheless do I think you are very brave for speaking up and I hope you do get over it.
    There are many guys out there with a good hart don’t forget that, but sadly as you know the opposite is also true..
    I hope you don’t ever have to go through something like that again, nobody deserves that. My girlfriend, and a lot of her female friends have all had some kind of sexual harassement.
    It seems that women are a lot more susceptible to these things.
    Is it in the nature of men? Or is it because females are generally speaking physically weaker and some men abuse that? I have many questions floating in my head.
    Maybe it can be explained from a scientist’s point of view. I mean for all we know 200.000-150.000 years ago there would be no such thing as sexual harassement and these cruel things could have been the norm. Ofcourse human culture has evolved a lot by now. But our genes or say human instincts remain right?
    Like the urge to eat when you’re hungry.
    Maybe some men have that deeply wired in them.
    Maybe I am overthinking this too much..

    Anyways I am not here to pity you all I want to say is have a great life!
    I hope you have good friends to support you.
    I wish you the best with many greets from Belgium. (By the way sorry for any mistakes in spelling or grammar my mother tongue is Dutch, and I hope nothing I wrote is offensive it is not ment in such a way)
    Wow long post 🙂

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